“Lecherous Me”

When progress is a step forward with every word I say

The Earth can outrun me in its rotation with each day

Am I coming down with something; have I been stricken ill?

The flesh I crave so hopelessly is consuming me still

My eyes deceive me as her thighs will tease me

Am I a monster as I speak the unspeakable plea?

Her body is so beautiful and I just want a taste

My mind becomes the victor in a war of cut and paste

I’ve got melancholy riding shotgun as I return to my home

Are my dirty thoughts going to corrode my heart of chrome?

The sex I crave, the hunger within

A rising fire, an all-consuming sin

“Sunshine, Shores, Transcendence”

Am I coming to grips with my humanity?

I’ve seen a new side of myself today

I found a place to fit in with my family

I feel like an uncle for the first time

And not just another familiar face

The sunshine warms my troubled heart

And the coast calms my anxious soul

Light the darkened sky on fire for me

A confident step into manhood

I’m seeing through my façade

The wind and trees all move for me

And the sun lights the sky today

Maybe I am alone but I am searching

I know the love of my life is out there

She’s probably crying, calling out for me

When she finds me I’ll be her everything

I am growing and I am gaining strength

I will break away from my sorrow

Slay my weaknesses and march onward

I will grow into a beautiful tree

Blessed by the earth and sky

I will come out of this cocoon

And you will see my beautiful wings

“Anchors Aweigh Ye Lonesome”

My hand wishes for a seat within another’s hand

My head is begging for a rest upon her shoulder

My eyes are too tired and my legs are too weak

I feel like I can’t move an inch in this subtle death

Companionship blowing in the wind behind me

And I’m eagerly awaiting the next installment

A wish upon a star is but a fish upon a sea

“Among The Feathers”

She’s got me right where she wants me

I’m the number dialed out of necessity

Keeping me just close enough for comfort

I become zombified as I continue forward

Yet

Those thoughts creep back into my head

And throw me right back to the ground

Where I started

But I won’t

(No, no I won’t)

I won’t let myself be so weak this time

She’s got me right where she wants me

(She’s got me right where she needs me)

I’m the number dialed out of necessity

(The number much less dialed out of desire)

Keeping me just close enough for comfort

(She keeps me just far enough away)

I become zombified as I continue forward

(Reaching out as slowly move toward the sunlight)

As if I were hungering for the next day of my life

But I won’t!

(No, no I won’t)

I won’t let myself be so weak this time!

I call out to myself in the mirror

I will face you!

I've got to throw this away

I've got to look away

For I know that

Oh precious, you do exist somewhere

Above the horizon and over those rolling hills

This is not you, this is not meant for me

I have to become who I want to be

Before I can let you see

I send my love from across time

Know that I am being strong for you

She’s got me right where she wants me

I’m the number dialed out of necessity

Keeping me just close enough for comfort

I become zombified as I continue forward

I call out to myself in the mirror

(I send my love from across time)

I will face you!

(Know that I am being strong for you)

I call out to myself in the mirror

(I send my love from across time)

I will face you!

(Know that I am being strong for you)

I won’t let myself be so weak this time!

I am not weak

I will not break

I am not weak

I will not break!

“Metamorphosis 47% Complete”

Cut the skin and let the reason flow

Dress the wound and pray for your soul

Reality is but a dream in this sequence

The words painted across your silly face

Break your mental capacity and evolve

A new species to be found within yourself

But you must let go of your humanity

The soil will not judge you as you walk upon it

Those eyes however must be torn out

Become what you’ve always wanted to be

Fade into coma as you unleash your mind

“Burning Down Your White Flag”

So you’re unhappy,

You’re the bearer

Of your own misfortune

Throw your apathy away

And fight back!

Change your life

Destroy yourself

Tear out your insides

Rebuild from the ashes

Reshape who you are

Force your own hands

Change your life.

If it pains you, toss it aside

If it calls out your name, ignore it

Break free of your bonded mentality

Burn down your unholy enclosures

March on and never surrender

Change your life.

“Meta-Ghost: The Unwavering Saint”

Coarse skin, thick air

The fog weighs heavy today

I wish I could stop breathing

Oh moonlit sky, the desert has taken me in

Pray, as the skies are augmented with overcast dreams

My mind is on shuffle as I proceed through this preliminary

The ocean calls out to me, drawing me near, am I losing it?

Wrecked soul, ruined smile

A growing flame with freshly cut wood at its heart

And I wish I could stop breathing

I dream of being weightless so the wind could take me

These walls are melting and twisting all around me, laughing

They can read my mind and they watch everything I do

I’m jaded; I want no more of this helpless indecency

Unclean thoughts, motionless heart

These fists tighten around the neck that bore them

I will stop breathing

“Birthed In Oil”

There were tentacles and wires

There were no lights, no fires

Then a hand slipped through

The womb of thick black goo

Take my hand! Take my hand!

I need you now before I can stand

Flesh slipped through the oily canal

Not quite what I’d call natural

Are we all alone among these stars?

Am I stuck here with all these scars?

With no home left to return to?

Just darkness, no lights, no view

These mutated beasts draw near

And we’ve succumbed to our fear

Blow torches in hand, hungering for skin

Escape now, the wrath of the ugly twin

Get inside if you want to live, eject, eject!

This darkness is not what you expect!

“Royal Ghost: The Age of Crimson”

I’ll enjoy the scenery as my heart speeds up

A nervous motion upon a marvelous sun rise

Neither light nor dark can guide this lost soul

I’ll find myself raising my fists to the sky again

Only to be faced by another astounding grin

I think this world is going to swallow me whole

Or I’ll end up bleeding out before my very eyes

Bathe in gold, oh humble soldier, and raise your cup!

And you want it bad

You want it, you want it bad

Don’t you, boy?

That gaze, that grin, oh it’s turning me to stone

Seems I’ll crumble before I feel myself alive again

Breathe in, breathe out, exoskeletal emotional reign

Favor us now, oh distant sun, I need this morning glow

Must I come crashing down upon myself to muster a ‘hello’?

I find myself spinning in circles over this, wracking my brain

This is the age of crimson and we’re all bathing in sin

Radio silence consumes me as I constantly check my phone

And you want it bad

You want it, you want it bad

Don’t you, boy?

Get over yourself

You’re a ghost wearing a robe and a crown

Unholy host, burning the globe and gown

Just give up

“OF Fury & Fortune”

Funny thing about the sun is that after it abandons you

It comes right back, just as bright as before

And all you have to do is have a little patience

This is the faith you need to have in yourself

[Before you fall apart]

Shut yourself up before you destroy the world

Relish in your blessings before they crumble

It’s not easy living with yourself in dark times

Feign not, for the future is worth waiting for

Reach out with your palm wide open and receive

The things I’m trying to tell you

When it brings you sorrow

When it brings you agony

Tear out your heart

Listen to your soul

So shut yourself up before you destroy us all

Relish in your blessings before they crumble

I know it’s not easy living with yourself in darkness

But feign not, the future is so worth waiting for

So reach out with your palm wide open and receive

The things I’m trying to get through to you

When it brings you sorrow

When it brings you sorrow

[Throw it away]

When it brings you agony

When it brings you agony

[Tear out your heart]

Listen to your soul

[Listen to your soul]

Listen to your soul!

“Mourn, Phantasmal Shore”

The silent waters begged for my return on this night, it seems

I left my iron shell for a moment and traveled to the exact spot

That I knelt down and gave her three things on that overcast night

A white rose for eternal friendship and a red rose for eternal love

And that ring she knew I had, the one she waited so eagerly for

But the times have changed and the ocean brings different waters

Ghosts have come and haunted me but this night is cleansed

The drive home was a reminder of everyone else I’d been with

Each area a memory of a beautiful girl and a time now long gone

It’s as if no matter how bad it hurts, it’s just another recollection

And I can’t stop fidgeting; now I’m at the edge of my seat

As I come home and stuff another wad of cash in my jar

I’ll take this worn out soul halfway across the country if I have to

Dying for an escape, not from the sorrow but from the reminders

And I don’t need to prove to any of you that I’m over all of this

My heart beats for the next page, a blank canvas before me

I’m waiting for my fair maiden to arrive and spill her colors upon it

Paint me a new tomorrow, dearest stranger, I’m waiting patiently

I’ll take this anguish to the grave, but I won’t wallow in it any longer

Wraith upon wraith on these dark shores, oh unhallowed boon

Wreck yourself no more, fellow spirit, for the stars shine tonight

“Sonnet to Your Defeat”

From the catacombs an echo is heard

Rotting skulls rolling around, absurd

Where the light travels underground

Is where your deathbed can be found

My wings will spread and I will not fail

I will not cower for I am no longer frail

I am on my rise and I shall never halt

Dear treasured spirit, this is your fault

And this is where my sword will rest

Alas, buried deep inside of your chest

There is no hope for you dearest rival

They’ll mourn as they witness my revival

An ending draws near as darkness falls

With your blood I shall paint the walls

“Anathema On High”

Pushing me down

Pushing me down

Bury me with a crown

I’m tired of your little white lies and I’m tired of your excuses

I’m tired of your confrontation and I’m tired of you

I am the northerner

And my rage will not rest on this day

Those advances are heard and they are not the first, nor the last

You detest me and I will not forgive what I cannot comprehend

You hurt me in so many ways and for what? You had to have me

You had to have me!

So just think about that as you take up your cup and toast a brand new tragedy

You are pestilent and I am so far away from feeling anything but this deep shade

How can I be your friend when you’ve ruined so much of who I am?

Have you no morels, no heart, no head, no hurt?

I burn this to the ground because I cannot look upon it anymore without anguish

It’s sad to see it end in flames but she’s burning down

I wish you the best of luck when I’m in my right mind

But these fleeting emotions, these fists form so easily

I’m afraid its goodbye and I hope you get what you deserve

“Everything Around Beauty Is Made Ugly”

I’m wary just giving thought to these things anymore

Speaking of them only breathes life into them and death into me

I’m the wild card; fitting in wherever you need me

But for some reason I find myself in the discard pile

Someone tell me why young beautiful flesh is so unobtainable

Like sentient beings among men they stride with petty concerns

All of this is giving me a migraine as I push myself toward the morrow

Steadying my nervous hand and attempting to ignore those whispers

And as for all of you, dear thoughts, stay your charm and linger

For dreams and ambitions will bring me far but what you’re doing is…

Futile.

Fantasies and desires set this liar liar on fire

Fantasies and desires all the things I admire

Blessed shadow, rise up and claim your throne

Your potential is greater than that of mine

I’ve been bludgeoned; Broken every bone

I’ll wake up after all of this one day feeling just…

“Vile Rose: The Human Heartache”

Is it just me or is it hot in here?

Is it just me?

Or am I catching fire!?

I’m in my own little world but it’s starting to feel like I’m stuck in it.

Through the tinted glass I can see the poison spill

Eating alive the flesh before it seeps its way through the concrete

Oh god, have mercy

I’m relying on my own self control tonight

I’ve found security in my hallucinations

I’m become a burning mass of thought

The stars will be jealous, don’t you think?

“When every breath you take is a breath back to life

And your body is stained with the soil you took your slumber below

The death that became you slowly slips away through your fingers

And your heart starts to beat again as dawn rises up behind your back

You might be caught off guard but it might just be your lucky day”

But might is a powerful word…

I might just fall asleep and dream of the same horrors all over again

What If I give this heart away once more and it’s not strong enough?

What shall I do when I am turned to stone yet again, never-ender?

I am living history; a long cycle of distress, astonishing in my ignorance

“So I’ll course your veins

I’ll read your mind

I can even feel your heart

Fear me not

Oh, fear me not, dearest boy!

I wish not for your agony

You will see in due time

For I am love and I am eternal!”

"Black Holiday"

I've got these Booming emotions from times now past, echoing in the silence of my apathetic mind. A phone call for a million brooding blood vessels and I'm more concerned about my right to carry my fists tightly locked.

So I'm corrupted and I'm going mad

So they say

I find myself starring at the stars trying to make sense out of my life, secretly hoping they'd all fall out of the sky and come crashing down. Dawn's burning mass of security lies just over the selfish horizon.

So I'm bitter and I'm always sad

So they say

I want to travel the country side and escape my unsatisfactory course of action; I was meant for greater things than these. I'll claim my place in this world and topple all visions you had of me as I rise up from this deathbed.

“Ascension One-Twenty”

It’s the adrenaline rush when someone is in dire need

It’s the dehydration after pushing yourself too far

It’s the dry tears after you’ve ripped out your aching heart

It’s the dawn of a new day

The sun is always shinning and the trees all move with the same rhythm

It’s the sparkles on the ocean and the stars in the sky at the end of the night

My fists loosen and my worn out face cracks a smile for once

Drained.

Deceased.

Buried.

Exhumed.

It’s the way everyone disappears in a thunderstorm

My feet breaking into a stride even when faced with a brick wall

It’s the self conscious ever whispering in my mind

Letting the fresh air breathe life back into me